I've gotten hit on the head with a football on Saturday, my left knee feels like someone chopped it off and sewed it back together thinking I could still walk, I've gotten tackled today (all from playing touch and flag football), physical things can't phase me nor can emotional things. I've always told people that the only thing that could possibly phase me is anyone from my immediate family dying.
So for me to want to disappear doesn't make me 'weak', I just know what I want now, and I know what I have to do to get there. Fuck everything and everyone else cause I've learned that I can only trust myself.
People will always talk no matter who you are or what you do. I'll give you something to talk about.