Monday, February 28, 2011
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Ever heard of anyone say "I'm not a morning person"? Or have you ever felt angry, grumpy, or a little whinier when you’re hungry? If you haven’t let me show you a short commercial:
If you’ve ever heard anyone say they weren't a morning person or if you're feeling grumpy, you’re probably just lacking in serotonin (aka the happiness hormone). When your body has low serotonin levels or the serotonin receptors in your brain isn’t as active as other people’s, you're more susceptible to to depression, annoyance, and migranes.
How serotonin works in our bodies:
In order for our bodies to synthesize more serotonin we need tryptophan. Tryptophan is an essential amino acid, and we have to get it from the foods we eat because our body can’t produce it. Tryptophan can be found in foods like: chocolate, eggs, milk, fish, and poultry just to name a few. So when we eat foods that contain high contents of tryptophan, our bodies also creates higher levels of serotonin. In return, the serotonin is released into our brain which gives us the content, comfortable, and relaxed feeling.
There you have it; a quick fix for crabbiness is food. And to that person who's "not a morning person" just tell them to eat breakfast.
Again, I'm just summarizing the best I can from what I have read. If I'm incorrect about anything feel free to let me know. That's the only way I'll learn. [=
Thursday, February 24, 2011
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Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Sunday, February 20, 2011
We’ve all seen it played over and over in various ways in different movies; the person who acts stupid in front of someone they are attracted to out of nervousness. We’ve all heard different artists sing it in songs; “See I can never feel alone with you in my life/I'll give up everything I own for you/won't think twice/almost ashamed how I'm mesmerized/such a shame/I lose my thought lookin’ in your eyes/I know why/because your kisses make my lips quiver/and that's real/and when you touch me my whole body shivers/I can feel/now I can see how another life/another life/could have the power to take over mine”—Ashanti “Baby”. We’ve all read it in books and magazines; the person who feels butterflies fluttering around in their stomachs at the sight of someone they love.
I have always felt overly blessed with my life, like there was never anything missing or there wasn’t a thing I wanted that someone else had. After watching what actors portray in movies, hearing what singers sing in the lyrics of their songs, and what authors describe in their books, I didn’t think all of this butterfly stuff was something people actually felt and preserved. But all of my friends have brought to my attention, that one can get pure bliss from being with someone they love romantically. I, for the first time ever am feeling envious of anyone and everyone who have felt this kind of felicity.
All of my girlfriends and guy friends (at least the ones who are brave enough to admit it) have sworn they’ve felt an amount of unexplainable excitement, euphoria, and joy just from being with the person they love. Even after seven, long, whole years a close couple friends of mine both have said just with them making eye contact to one another across the room have made them fall in love with each other all over again. I thought that stuff only happened in make believe land.
In the twenty something years of breathing I have never felt anything remotely close to euphoria from being with another person. Probably a reason why none of my romantic affairs (for those of you who don't know the definition, it is not to be mixed w/the word cheating or infidelity) have ever lasted, and I have also never declared my love for someone either. Yes, even after being with Thinh for 5 ½ years. Same goes for any of the guys I have talked to or kissed in the past. I mean I’ve felt attraction, but never anything strong enough for me to believe that it was love.
With all of the happiness that I currently have and somehow obtaining, I will continue to live my life until it blesses me with a man who can make me feel the things I see, hear, and read about. I know now to never settle for a guy who won’t give me such chemistry and won't sweep me off my feet (what girl doesn't secretly want that?). And to those of you who are already with someone that makes you feel that crazy yet amazing feeling, don’t let go because you were blessed enough to already have felt something so wonderful.
This is the song I quoted above:
Saturday, February 19, 2011
(A) Age: 20 something
(B) Bed Size: queen
(C) Chore You Hate: Laundry
(D) Dogs? nope
(E) Essential Start Your Day: Reading the news
(F) Favorite Color: the rainbow
(G) Gold or Silver? white gold
(H) Height: 5’0"
(I) Instruments You Play(ed): none )=
(J) Job Title: life enjoy-er
(K) Kids: nope
(L) Live: Twin Cities, MN
(M) Mom’s Name: Thanhloan
(N) Nicknames: tamzilla
(O) Overnight Hospital Stays? a few
(P) Pet Peeve: complainers
(Q) Quote from a movie: ”IOh, yes the past can hurt but you can either run from it or learn from it." --The Lion King
(R) Right or Left Handed? Right
(S) Siblings: 1 sister, 1 brother
(T) Time You Wake Up? I don't sleep
(U) Underwear: thongs
(V) Vegetable You Dislike: peas
(W) What Makes You Run Late: my long hair
(X) X-Rays You’ve Had Done: cat scans, ultrasounds, pap-smears, mammography
(Y) Yummy Food You Make: banh xeo, ca ri, flan, any vietnamese soup, any kind of pasta, etc.
(Z) Zoo, Favorite Animal: Lions
We were standing in line for a ride in Disney Land and it was the first time I met my cousin's cousin Diane. She was trying to get to know me so she asked me what my favorite number, color, food, clothing store, etc were and that's when it triggered me that I don't have a favorite anything besides favorite animal and movie but even that's questionable since I like too many movies.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Starting in March, every Monday will be MY Monday. No answering to texts, phone calls, seeing anyone, or hanging out w/anyone (unless you're immediate family or it's an ABSOLUTE emergency like a close girlfriend who just got dumped or something).
It'll be a full 24 hours of much deserved and needed Tammy Time.
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
41. When someone remembers the little details about you
42. Doing absolutely nothing but talking about past memories w/friends you've had for almost 10+ years
43. Remembering a dream days, months, even years after having dreamnt it (it's rare for me to remember a dream, but when I do it sticks w/me.)
44. When people say "yes" instead of the expected "no"
45. When someone texts to tell me drive home safe or calls/texts me to see if I got home safe after a long night
46. Making up a dish as you go and having it turn out super-fab
47. How shiny and clean your car looks with other cars on the road after a fresh carwash
48. People's natural scent > perfume/cologne any day
49. Children with good manners
I remember watching Grease for the first time in '97 w/my Aunt and cousins from Cali. I loved the songs, and the story-line. But I <3 this cover. Maybe that'll be a movie I'll watch twice. (;
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Although a torn family was a huge reason on why I chose not to stay, but other things played a role in the decision also: yes I was born there, and I have been to many different states in my twenty something years of living, but I’ve never returned to California since my parents chose to make the switch to move to Minnesota after I was just a month old. I think everyone kept saying how great the state was that I had high expectations, and along with high expectations came disappointments. It was a lot more “chill” than I had imagined it to be. I prefer the fast life that NYC or other big cities offer, and L.A., Garden Grove, Huntington Beach, Newport Beach, Anaheim, Costa Mesa, etc. didn’t bring that fast, rush rush living feeling for me. I spent the majority of my time w/my aunt, my cousins, their cousins, and their friends. Overall, California would be an ideal vacation spot, but definitely not to reside. At least in my opinion, but honestly the place wouldn’t be so bad if I could drag my family and my friends out here with me.
My parents, siblings, and even friends (that knew about the trial period) all have told me to give it an extended period of time and maybe it’ll grow because c’mon how can you tell in just a week right? But I know the place isn’t for me, and to me life is crazy short, time must not be wasted. I know for a fact that if I had stayed there longer to say give it a try and be open minded about it, I’d still be returning to the place I call home.
As human beings why is it that we always make something simple so complicated for others and ourselves? Maybe we like to put forth the extra time, energy, and efforts into all that we do, because if we’re going to do something we might as well do it with all we have. Or is it those obstacles we create are what makes us feel alive.
You say you want to quit your job, but then you tell yourself the bills aren’t going to pay itself.
You like someone but instead of just going for it and being with them, you tell yourself what if he/she hurts you...but what if he/she doesn't?
You love someone but instead of getting married you tell yourself what if you’re not ready. Well if you’re not ready now when you two are in love when the hell will you be?
You want to switch majors but instead of doing it you dwell on all of the ‘lost’ time and money you’ve already spent on the current one and how much it’ll cost you to do the big change.
See everything is easy, really it is. I don't believe anything in life is complicated. It just all winds down to how bad you want it. Because if you want it bad enough you'll go for it, do it, be with that person, etc...however if you don't want something bad enough you'll continue to make excuses to not obtain it. So with all of that said, how bad do you want it?
I'm definitely guilty of this.
Monday, February 7, 2011
Maybe God gave me extra blessings.
Maybe I still have a lot to encounter and experience.
Maybe i'm not a 40 year old trapped in a 20 something year old's body.
But whatever it is, this world is cruel.
When time gets tough I constantly remind myself that others have it worse than I do, but it wasn't until this weekend that I really got a glimpse of what that meant with someone so close yet so far away.
None the less, everything was a deal breaker for me in my decision making process.
I was given the opportunity more than once, and was asked over and over again if I was sure, but I refused to accept it.
So where do I go from here?
Carry on as I did before, not knowing of all the trials and tribulations that someone went through?
Cut off and avoid because life is too short to make every mistake yourself, so I gotta learn from other's?
Or just keep to myself and continue to lie like I had to today?
I'm not one to lie about anything, even though everyone lies. But lying to family isn't what I should go through life doing.
Whoever said blood is thicker than water definitely haven't lived long enough to know that it's not. Or they are as blessed as I am to never have experienced the fucked up shit that other's have.
With that said, it was a good run. But as each day goes on, I wanna make life easier for myself and those I surround myself with. --Not make it harder.
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