Me: I'm gonna limit myself to one glass of wine everyday until my exams.
J: but a glass will already get u buzzed so that doesn't count. & don't give me that it's good for u shit.
Me: but it is good for you! It's good for your heart.
J: shut the fuck up you don't have a heart.
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Oh how funny life is

I cannot sleep even though I've been trying desperately to train my body and mind to sleep more than the usual couple of hours a night, but I suppose old habits die hard.

Been reading a few old blog posts and ran across this one:

http://bit.ly/qwtVje

Oh funny how I was blogging about a career that'll make me happy. Who knew just a few months down the road of life I'd have found it.

I haven't been able to blog much, and with the way work has been going I won't be able to for a long while. If you miss my blogs, just keep reading on my past posts...I reread posts all of the time to remind me of certain things.

Extinct?

Jane: tamzilla needs to come out soon.
Me: yeah, after my 7.
Jane: oh shit, I thought she was extinct for awhile.

(:
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Things That Make Me Happy #'s 70-79

I used to do one of these at least once a month...my bad for not keeping up. and Hello to the new readers. I don't know exactly who you are, but I kind of have a clue who's been clicking through here. Just in case you didn't know, I don't care who reads my blog as long as you don't reveal your identity...yeah I'm weird like that.

70. keeping things lighthearted and fun...even when you're at work. (probably the #1 reason why I get along w/my coworkers so much. B/c we all can have fun and joke around w/each other without someone taking things too seriously...even in a professional atmosphere.)

71. my usual espresso shots (each week the # of shots go up)from the Dunn Bros off 6th and Marquette in the Northstar Building downtown...they know how I like my coffee. Andrea and Amir takes good care of me every morning.

72. dinner conversations where you're not trying too hard to have because it just flows out naturally (how every conversation should be.)

73. introducing people to new things/informing people about something they didn't know about before

74. lunch everyday w/my team members (specifically the guys I started it all with on day 1, no offense to the other guys who started before or after us. But I can start work at 8am and get off at 8pm no problem, but I need that 45min - Hour break from my day w/these guys. They make me laugh!)

75. fun in the sun...if I'm out in the sun I'm having fun. It does not matter what I'm doing.

76. Nights in hookahing, eating endless junk food, surfing Netflix, watching redbox movies while studying w/close friend(s)....it's a nice break from drinking and going out

77. having time to listen to music through my desktop so it can scrobble to my last.fm account

78. people who know exactly what to say and do to make you laugh and smile

79. food at my work's cafeteria...for a cafeteria the food is bomb dot com!

I haven't written a real meaningful post in awhile and it's all due to the amount of time and energy I've been putting into work as of late.

I really enjoy my job, and especially the people I am surrounded by everyday (which is always a huge deal). So I've been putting much more effort into this job versus any other job I've worked at. But it's still hard for me to find myself dedicating myself to this position.

It's actually hard for me to commit or dedicate 100% of myself into something because although today, I may feel like I want this really bad, the next day I'll want something else.

Like how fast my mind changes thoughts, my feelings change even faster.

I just want to commit to something that'll make me happy and give me the sense of fulfillment that I crave and need. I mean I am happy and currently fulfilled w/my current job, but I still lack the dedication needed to follow through w/the next two exams.
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