Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I just realized that I always have the need to share with people the things I'm passionate about and expect them to like it also. Everything from food, music, clothes, books, movies, cell phones (we all know I'm a big BlackBerry fan), etc, etc I always feel like I need to tell people about it. I think I get a little joy out of it. Sue me.
I don't really keep track of my hit counter that I have on this particular blog, but I do glance at it every time I'm on here, and I'm noticing the hits are increasing more than it did three months ago. I don't know if that's due to the fact that I'm blogging a lot more now or that more people I know know about this blog. Whatever it is, I'm glad people are reading my stuff, but I don't want that to change what I write about on here. I like writing on blogspot versus xanga and livejournal because too many people that knew me knew about those two blogs, so I've felt the need to hold back what I write on there. Originally, it was just a couple of people who knew about this blog, but obviously with more and more people having blogspots and adding those couple people, they're finding mine along the way.
A friend of mine asked for the link of this blog last night, but I wouldn't give it to him. He told me if it's public, then why can't he read it? --Well, I don't mind if people read it, as long as I don't know who reads it. So I told him to find it. I like knowing that people read my blog, especially strangers who stumble upon it because they don't have any prejudgment of who I am, all they know is the things I'm feeling through my words.
Words are my weapon of choice. It could kill ya.
- a bun mi
- shabu shabu
- push pop
- a good, long, heart felt, no holding back conversation about life and everything in between
- aloe vera drink
- bot chien
- work or something that'll occupy my time
- a nice tan
- fresco melt w/cheese fries from steak&shake
- portillos' salad
- laying out at the beach w/a good book and good music
- hagaan dazs coffee ice cream
- monopoly w/my friends
- the list goes on...
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
....yeah, think about it. If this and that didn't happen when it did, you wouldn't be right where you are right now.
...but this and that did happen, and you are right where you are..sooooo what now?--better than asking yourself what if, if you ask me. (=
-jammin' to Azure Ray - Sleep, right this instance. Thinking thinking thinking, what's new?
...when I read my previous posts, most of them are time stamped in the AM's...funny how that is. Maybe sleep isn't my thing, maybe I really truly do feel that sleep is a waste of time, or maybe life just won't let me rest. Too tired to do anything, but too awake to sleep.
-The Backstreet Boys. I still know all of the words to every one of their songs. I remember back in the days when cd players were the cool thing, I'd always have a BSB cd playing. Especially before I fell alseep, I'd sing in my room, to myself. Where are all of those cds now?! Must find.
-just got a surprise text from an old friend. Why hello to you too stranger. Reason, season, or a lifetime. Either way, I hope I'm remembered, because I deserve to be.
-strange how little brothers and little sisters look older than us older siblings now-a-days. wtheck are they putting in the milk these days? roids????!? Which reminds me, I kinda wish I was taller. #keepdreamin
-"When I started flirtin with the hustle, failure became my ex. Now im engaged to the game and married to success“—Lil Wayne
...thinking of this quote reminds me of a quote from earlier conversations "all it'll be is pong, wayne, drake, and tyga"
-you know how i talked about fear being so powerful that it overcomes most people's happiness? i just, right now, literally right now realized that happiness has a strong power over me. i'm not sorry that i'm selfish. i've seen too many people unhappy in my lifetime, i just don't wanna be like you. an unhappy life is a life wasted...my thoughts at least. i can name a few of you who'd strongly disagree...but let's agree to disagree on this subject.
-so i heard this saying awhile back, it goes a little something like this "nothing in this life that's worth having comes easy"--so, unbelievably, true.
-“I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances, and how it’s really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you’re always glad you took it.”- JD; Scrubs---whoever this JD guy is, or I guess whichever writer from Scrubs wrote that line is a smart man/woman.
-sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo how do i break the news to everyone? #dontjudgeme #itsnotwhatyouthinkitis
-fuck what you heard, if you don't know, then you better ask somebody!
-i feel like i'm always going to be the girl who got away. but then again I'm fine with that too.
-you know what's scary to me? spiders, heights, isn't scary, but tomorrow is. i got through today, but no one ever knows about tomorrow. are you going to be there to enjoy it? will the people you care about be there to enjoy it with you?
-wicked, wicked, wicked...gotta get tickets ASAP. i have a feeling labor day weekend ticks will be sold out...prove me wrong!
..but first I hope MFB will visit. lameo he is, always last minute, er last second.
-i miss my brother. with him, i realized another thing about myself. i like running away from my problems. well most of them anyway. like how i never visit him, so i just run, literally. that's my excuse for not seeing him daily like how i used to. i'm a pathetic sister, i know. please don't remind me.
-"if i only had one wisssshhhh" #rayjvoice
-lights out. curtain call. haha i wish! sweet dreams world. cause i know i will be having em.
Monday, August 16, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
I always have a song for trips that I go on. Guilty reminds me of the Chicago trip my friends and I took back at the end of May. Lots of me mories flood back to my mind when I hear this song play. The countless hours in the hotel room talking about the night before, laughing at the silly people, getting ready to go out, deciding where to eat, etc. It's funny because before the trip, Giang and I were talking about where to go for my birthday, and I told her Chicago was the last place I wanted to go to because I've been to the city countless times before and it was just boring to me. Who knew it would've been one of the best trips I've ever taken in my life. A city in the middle of the U.S. Not too small, not too big.
Favorite super hero and why:
I wish my bangs didn't take forever and a day to grow out because I really want short hair again. My face is pretty petite so when my hair grows out to be a certain length, I think it's quite unflattering, or it could just be me. I honestly don't even know why I need my bangs to be grown out before I chop it all off, but that's the way it's gotta be.
Clear bra straps
Something totally random, but I dislike them. They're supposed to be inconspicuous but they're not. If anything, they're more noticeable than the nude colored ones. Ladies, just wear a strapless bra, or just wear a different outfit.
What would you do if you knew you could not fail?
Someone recently asked me that, and my answer? I know I can't fail at anything I do, so I'm just going to continue what I've been doing, living. It might sound arrogant to most of you, but it's just my mindset. Maybe I won't achieve the goal or the outcome might not be what I was expecting, but that doesn't mean that I have failed. I'll just take the experience, look back at it, learn from it, and grow from it. Easy peasy as 1,2,3.
The glass is always half full.
I know I've blogged about this before in previous posts, but I think this is what sets me apart from a lot of people: my unlimited amounts of optimism and hope. I honestly don't know how or why I have so much of it, but it's definitely one of the reasons why I always have a smile glued to my face. I believe in a lot of things and one of them is in the end everything will be fine, if it's not fine, it's not the end. Tomorrow is never promised to us, and I've seen far too many people complain, whine, cry, obsess about their 'sad' life and I feel bad for them, because of what they're missing out on. What is it that's so bad that you are so sad about? I mean if you think you got it bad, there are far too many others out there who have it worst. #thinkaboutit
Eat, Pray, Eat
I don't know why it took me as long as it did to see the movie, but I finally saw the darn movie. After countless numbers of people telling me how much the book and trailer reminded them of me, I can see in some aspects why they would think that. I'm not going to sit here and give a review of the movie, but I have to say there were some pretty inspiring points, some ideas to dwell on, and also dull moments. If you're interested just see the movie for yourself to judge, because everyone is different.
It's amazing how fear works, and depending on how you use it, it could either help you or hold you back in life. It could help you by allowing you to feel, see, and realize things you never would have without it. A few examples: the fear of losing someone, the fear of not succeeding, the fear of letting someone down, etc.
I see so many of my peers allow fear to hold them back in life, and as much as I wish I could help them snap out of it, there's only so much I can say to them and as usual words don't travel far enough for people to actually listen. An example of that is although so many of my friends aren't happy in their relationship w/their significant other, they still continue to stay in it because they are comfortable, it's easy, and they fear change. Stupidest thing I've ever seen yes, but like I said how fear works is amazing, and it's so powerful that it'll have people sacrificing their happiness for it.
Pet peeve #230493
Two words I hate using in sentences is: I dream _______. or I wish __________. I mean, yes I use them in that context from time to time, but I try my hardest not to because instead of dreaming or wishing for something to happen, I like to make it happen. Why tease yourself of the thought of the dream and wish if you aren't going to put any action into it. A dream and a wish will only remain a dream and a wish unless you attempt to do the impossible. It's kinda like teasing a fat kid with a cake and not letting him have a slice, why would you do that to yourself?
Some people think about doing things
Some people wish to do things
And some people do
I like to think myself as the person that does. Dreaming and wishing it is just the plan, then I put that plan into action. Mission accomplished.
"Destiny is for losers. It's just a stupid excuse to wait for things to happen instead of making them happen" -Blair Waldorf
I like to go back and reread the things I've written and see how much of it has changed since then. I read back to my post back in November 13, 2009 and it read:
blah blah blah then..."Trade everything I've known and am comfortable with for something unfamiliar and unknown? People would say I'm crazy if I traded everything I've known in for something unfamiliar, that's why I'm still here, physically. I feel like my heart is elsewhere. You can too."
It's funny how it all worked out in the end. My heart was truly elsewhere. It's a shame that it took me months and months to do something about it though, but then again it took that long for a reason.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
This song reminds me of my guardian angels. She was the first to teach me a lot of things in life because my parents were both busy working when I was young. I still remember the day when I first met her at the airport w/my aunts, uncles, and cousins from my mommy's side. I also remember the day when she become paralyzed. I was right next to her when it happened. When I think about it now, I feel like how could I not have known something was wrong from the start, but then again I was barely 6 years old. I didn't know any better.
But I just wanted to let you know that I still think about you a lot, and that you made a huge impact on my life. and thank you for watching over not just me but the whole family ba ngoai.
A picture of somewhere you've been to:
Friday, August 13, 2010
Everclear - Wonderful
First, I would like to say that I don't think any song could really make me 'sad'. I think all songs make me happy, but with this particular song, everytime I listen to it it brings back lots of childhood memories. I was first introduced to this song when I was a child. I probably wasn't any older than 11 or 12 years old. I was going through my rebellious stage in life where I hated my parents, their unfair rules, school, everything and anything. I remember this was also around the same time where my parents would fight a lotttt. The first verse was always what I listened for when I hear this song, and it still is.
I think thoughts that I know are bad
I close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope its over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
I hope my Mom
And I hope my Dad
Would figure out why they get so mad
I hear them scream
I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
I close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels that make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say everything will be wonderful some day"
A habit that I wish I didn't have:
I don't think I could pick just one for this. I would love to not have any bad habits, but unfortunately I'm human. I wish I didn't have such a potty mouth. I think it's pretty unattractive when not only girls cuss, but also guys. I shouldn't be one to talk because my potty mouth is pretty bad, but I'm making an attempt to calm it down.
I also wish I managed my time better to be on time for everything I have to appear at. I'm late to everythinggg, even work. No matter how much I try to wake up earlier, drive faster, sleep earlier, I'm still late to wherever it is that I have to be at. I apologize to everyone who's ever had to experience sitting by themselves because they were waiting for me to show up.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
-good music (lyrics + rhythm)
-well written books
-long and short run sessions
-conversations over dinner
-drinks over happy hour
things that relaxes
-time spent at Lifetime Fitness
-run sessions outside
-mini naps in the steam room
things that i miss
-after sunday school and mass lunches w/mother and the sister
-the fam (ya'll know who you are)
-hanging out w/the stp boys
things that i could live without
-rude people/people w/no manners
-grey skies and rain
-the entire month of august
-bang grease that gives you forehead pimples
things that i could not live without
things i wish i had more of
-time w/my brother minus the meds
things that i believe in
-music, food, writing does the soul good
-that 20 yrs from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do then the things you did do
-patience is a virtue
-life's too short to be anything but happy
you can tell a lot by a person with
-the music they listen to
-the movies they prefer watching
-how they treat their family
-the way they drive
-how they treat their friends
-how they treat their belongings
-where they are in life
-their current goals (long and short) and ambitions
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Black Eyed Peas - Boom Boom Pow...even though the beat and lyrics are catchy, I can't help but cringe and flip the station immediately when it's played on the radio. It ale so doesn't help when the radio overplays it.
30 Day Challenge, Day one: A recent picture of you and fifteen interesting facts about yourself
Oanh and I taken earlier today at Sushi Tango
For the 15 facts I'll try and pick different ones than the ones I have on my Facebook to make it something new
1. you can play almost any song from any genre and I'll know the name and artist
2. I have a strange and weird phobia of round circular small things Ex: skittles, m&m's, grapes, cherries, marbles, etc.
3. my favorite animal is the lion
4. my favorite disney movie is the lion king
5. if there was one thing i wished my parents would've pushed on me when i was younger it'd definitely have to be playing the piano
6. halloween is my favorite holiday because it's the one day of the entire year where you get to be anyone in the world but yourself
7. even though i don't do it much, i enjoy cooking a lot. I wish i had more time to cook
8. i'm a huge NFL fan.
9. i hate sweets, but i'm slowly learning to appreciate the taste
10. i've switched my major so many times setting me back, but it hasn't stopped me from continuing
11. i've switched my major so many times because i can't pick just one thing to do for the rest of my life
12. living each day, day by day is harder than i thought it would be
13. my favorite color is the rainbow
14. my favorite channel on tv is HGTV
15. i want to do everything and see everything this world has to offer
I don't know which of the three I heart more; food, music, or writing.
They all seem to satisfy my soul, free my mind, and warm up my heart.
I've always thought I wrote better with music, but now I'm catching myself listening to the lyrics rather than focus on my writing.
old faces, old places
tonight was one of the BFF's little brother's going away dinner/thing at Tango. After tonight I remember why i try my best not to go there even though though they're the only place that makes the best beef and tuna tataki. It seemed like all of MN's Asian nation was there tonight, and not in a good way either. I mean it was fun seeing old faces again, but it was just too much especially when everyone has alcohol in their system.
The first person i ran into when i walked into the restaurant was Thinh. It was ridiculously funny to me because all I thought of when I saw him was how ugly, and ridic he looked w/those new earrings of his. Besides the fact that he tried starting a fight with two girl bartenders and me trying to shut him up and him yelling at me, it was good. It actually felt like we were friends until our mutual friends started pushing him on me, again. Sorry everyone, but it's been months. if I wanted to get back with someone who didn't appreciate me when he had me i would've done it a long time ago, not wait for months after we broke up to do so. Please get over it, cause I have. Thanks!--it's funny now that i see him, how could I have felt so strongly for him a moment back in time, and now he's standing in front of me and I feel absolutely nothing. emotions are fickle, they come and they go. everything will change except for change itself.
my friends can be so stupid sometimes, but Hoang he's stupid all of the time. Had to put him in check cause if I didn't he probably wouldn't have a girlfriend come tomorrow morning.
"Give me back her touch, I don't ask for much
but I fucked up, I know I fucked up, I admit I fucked up
but everybody fuck up, now this other nigga lucked up"
-Lil Wayne "Something you forgot" #everymansthemesong
whats funny is...
that i have this huge pet peeve of people being on their phone when i'm spending time with them. BUT...i know i know I'm always on my phone myself. I'm trying to cut my relationship with my Blackberry down to only taking pictures of food when I'm spending time with others, but it's so hard. #yeahimahypocrite
let's leave it at this. until tomorrow night.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
And your guards fall down from a rifle to the heart
Like, clap, clap, let em fall slow
I know you had your fears, you can let em all go" -Drake "July"
How do you know when something is real? What justifies it?
I feel like Chuck and Blair, for the love of the game.
If you know me then you'll know that I hate hate hate wasting time. Tomorrow isn't promised and I'll multi-task with almost everything I do. Whether it's everyday life like juggling full-time work while taking full-time credits or traveling and trying to see and do everything in the limited time that I have there even though I know I could just fly back there whenever I want to to get the rest done.
That's probably another reason why I always have to feel like I'm in control of my life, be in the know of what's going to happen. This is probably the first time ever that I have no control of anything in my life and although it's quite refreshing, it's also really frustrating. I normally cut everything and everyone out if I feel like it's a waste of my time and energy, so why haven't I done it yet? Having hope and being optimistic can be a downfall sometimes.
Songs for the soul; special occasion and special person not needed
-Brian McKnight - 6,8,12; anytime; back at one...they don't make songs like his anymore..but then again no one can sing like him.
-Dru Hill - incomplete
-ginuwine - differences
-ne-yo - in the way
etc, etc, etc I'm a human jukebox...especially when it comes to old school jammin'
The great listener
I've noticed that I've been picking up on blogging again. Blogspot has become my official ear. You listen to everything that I have to say, think, and feel. And best part about it?--it doesn't judge, so I'm never holding anything back. Feels good to clear your mind before sleeping though.
Ever since that movie, I've been trying to pay more attention to my dreams, and I've been remembering a lot of them for longer than 5 minutes after waking up. If you asked me now what I dreamnt about last night I probably couldn't tell you but if you ask me right before I wake up I could tell you all of the details, including what you wore in the dream. Pretty nuts, but do you think that dreams have any connections with your subconscious? --Not sure on that one myself, but it'd be pretty wild if it did.
Speed and time
It's funny how you wait for a day to come and when it finally arrives, it leaves faster than you can actually think about it. The past weekend definitely felt like that. Felt like everything was squeezed into an hour. #yeahimstillthinkingaboutit
Question(s) of the week
-Go with the flow or cut it off? I won't know unless I try right? But I feel like the trying will lead to no where.
-Would you rather be with someone who's the opposite of you or your twin? I think both has its pros and cons. I think the opposite will only work if both people have the same ultimate goals in life. Then it'd be rewarding to be w/someone who's your opposite because you're both going to continue learning new things about each other and learn to appreciate different perspectives and outlooks on things. But being with your twin can also be rewarding because you two compliment each other.
blah no more thinking....getting sleepyyy so don't mind the last topic...i probably don't know what i'm talking about, but i don't wanna erase it either
I normally would've waited for tomorrow to blog, but with all these things I wanna say, I just wanted to clear my mind first before trying to squeeze some REM time in.
She doesn't believe in shooting stars but she believes in shoes and cars
Right when I got to the campsite I told Linh that we pretty much drove 5 hours to just drink. She agreed and laughed. Who knew that that night would be one that'll go into the memory books. Even though I probably spent more time in my car driving than at the actual campsite itself, the time I did have there was amazing. Probably speaking more of the six-but-felt-like-one-hour night of star gazing.
Linh and I were taking swigs out of this Captain Morgan bottle nearby our tents to start out the night, out of nowhere she tells me to look up, and there it was twinkling lights that blanketed our world. And Max came up w/the crazy but awesome idea of grabbing our cooler and drinking at the top. Kidnapped a few people and there we were: in good company, good drinks, and a blanket of stars. It wasn't until Linh seeing a shooting star that I remembered it was on my bucket list to see one. Every time I saw one I got so excited. It didn't last any longer than a few seconds but it was still breath taking.
I probably saw 10+ shootings stars last night, but I didn't make a single wish. #lame
So it goes in the memory book as one of the best nights of my life, so far.
Back at One
Looking back at the beginning and even before the beginning of summer it's pretty incredible how things always works out, it's like my life's a giant puzzle slowly putting the pieces together.
I try really hard to not let myself think that some of my worst decisions in life are mistakes, because if I hadn't made those choices, I wouldn't be where I am today. I explained to a friend today how I thought that worked w/a relevant example, and it just made me realize even more how things do happen for a reason. One event leading to another. #prettycrazyshit
Linh: "you don't need to impress someone cause you love yourself"
I think it's pretty ridiculous that a lot of my close friends think that I love myself so much that I'm not capable of being selfless.
I mean I don't believe a person can be selfless ever. I might've already explained this in previous posts, but in short, you do things for others to see them happy, and seeing them makes you happy, so therefore that was a selfish act. Even though I don't believe a person can be selfless, a person can still be selfish and for good intentions. And I'd like to believe that I have good intentions for if not everything than 90% of my choices I've made in life.
It's not even that I love myself, it's just that I believe you have one life, and that it's your life; you should try and do everything you can to be happy in this one life. But that's just me, my ultimate goal is to retain this happiness that I have found for myself. I believe it should be everyone's ultimate goal. But not everyone's the same. I'll respect you for how you want to live your's, just expect me to add a little input though.
Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose. So believe in yourself, and love who you are. If you don't, who will?
--i have tons more to clear out, but my eyes aren't going to let me stare at this tiny portable screen anymore. Goodnight world. Until next time..
Sent via BlackBerry from T-Mobile
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
30 Day Challenge
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them?
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else?
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag?
Day 26- What you think about your friends?
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned?
Day 30- Who are you?
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
This is a reason why I highly dislike dating, the game that guys and ladies play with each other’s feelings. You just never if the other person’s feelings are genuine or not anymore, why not save everyone the trouble, time, and wasted efforts by just being real. It’s simple: don’t say things you don’t mean, and in return you won’t lead someone on. –Cause honestly, they deserve better than wasted time.
“If a man wants you, nothing will keep him away. If a man doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.”
I’m truly sad that summer is coming to an end. With so much coming up the next few weekends, the summer is going to flash right by me. Thank goodness for digital cameras, at least I can capture the moments. I’m always finding myself skimming through my summer pics before bed. I’m quite satisfied with everything I’ve crossed off and done so far this summer.
I must admit though, if summer never ended I would never get to watch the NFL games and of course THE MN State Fair, oh and can’t forget about Wicked. (=
Listen to: Free Sol – Don’t Give it Away
“Should I feel ashamed because…damn I’m only human. I take the blame for love. Whatever happens happens.”
Why do my friends and I feel like it’s such a horrible thing to let a guy into our lives as more than friends? Oh wait, that’s because we got pride issues. I guess it’s the men’s fault too though, if so many of them weren’t such dogs I wouldn’t feel the need to hold such pride for myself and my independence from them.
I’m ready for Ya
I don’t like to go searching for a significant other. Why should i? It’s such a huge waste of time to me. Live your life, and if someone catches your attention, let em. Let the chance happen, don’t let a good thing get away without trying.
It’s truly funny how life works. Times like this is when I believe that things happen for a reason.
“R.I.P. to the girl you used to see.
Her days are over. Baby she’s over.
I’ve decided to give you all of me.
Baby come closer, baby come closer.
I’m ready for ya.” –Drake
-95% of your friends are tied down and are contemplating marriage and/or moving in together
-your friends start to move out of state for a job
-you can’t hang like you used to
-you pass out in the car ride home after a night of drinking
-you notice yourself getting chubby b/c your metabolism is starting to slow down
-you think about where you’ll be in five years and can’t see anything
-life’s moving faster than you can actually take it all in