Dating

Dating, maybe I haven’t done it enough or maybe it’s just not for me. Either way, I don’t like it. That’s why, if anything were to happen to Thinh and I, I’m going to be single for a very long time.

I was on my lunch break today with a couple of my co-workers. Like everyone new that I meet, they always ask if I have a boyfriend and when I say I do, they ask how long we’ve been together. Whenever I tell them how long we’ve been together everyone just freaks out. Then comes the “whoa, that’s a really long time!” “How old are you two?” “When is the wedding?” I know they’re just joking but it gets old when it comes from every single person that I meet.

I’ve probably repeated this about a bajillion times before, but unlike most people my age, I believe that I’m getting old. Not old to the point where I need to get married, but I just don’t find dating interesting. Yes, I should see what’s out there for me and not to ‘settle’ but I don’t think of it as settling. I think of it as, I think I found the person who best suits me, and I have no intention on meeting someone else. I know there are a billion other fishes out there and they could suit me better, but there will always be someone better no matter who you end up with. I could be with the smartest guy; there will be someone who’s smarter. I could be with the most handsome guy, but there will be someone who is more handsome. I could be with someone who is successful, but there will always be someone who’s more successful. That doesn’t mean I should leave the one that I’m with just because there is someone out there that does it better than him? –I think he’s the best at everything he does anyway.

Another reason why I won’t date is because I find it tedious and boring. The guy will probably just make up a bunch of lies just to make himself look good, and after dating him for awhile, the truth will surface like it always does. I just don’t want to repeat everything that we’ve done already. We’ve worked so hard and put so much effort into where we are now. Starting all over with someone else?—No thanks!

Men and Women

"Here's the difference, to me, between boys and girls: Boys fuck things up; Girls are fucked up. That’s the difference. Boys just do damage to your house that you can measure in dollars, like a hurricane. Girls, like, leave scars in your psyche that you find later, like a genocide or an atrocity. That’s the difference between boys and girls. And it becomes the difference between men and women, really. A man will, like, steal your car or burn your house down or beat the shit out of you, but a woman will ruin your fuckin’ life. Do you see the difference? Like, a man will cut your arm off and throw it in a river, but he’ll leave you as a human being intact. He won’t fuck with who you are. Women are nonviolent, but they will shit inside of your heart." -Louis C.K.

I need to re-evaluate things that include: who's worthy of my time and who's not, where I want to be in life 5, 10, 20 years from now, how I'm going to get there, and what I need to do now to do so, what's worth my time and what isn't, blah blah blah.