"It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it."

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My first dozen roses I've ever recieved from anyone. Valentines Day 2005
(sorry about the weird resized pics, it looks funky!)

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The sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me would be the night when I was out camping with everyone (my usual friends Fanyan, Felix, Brian, Steven, Richard, Pat, GMR, etc etc) summer of '05, but this year was different because I got T, ChiChi, Harold, and Phuc to come out with us also. The only downside to it was that T and them could only stay for one night. So after the night and day that we spent together, T and I were spending time in my tent before he had to leave and he took out his cologne, which btw is one of my favorite scents of all time (Classic by Banana Republic) and sprayed his comforter all over with it.

T, then gave me the comforter and told me that he didn't want me to miss him too much and that I could sleep w/his comforter all night. (=

The sweetest thing ever. He is the sweetest ever.