Saturday, January 22, 2011

Chill-i Saturday

I'm convinced my parents guilt tripped me into eating dinner w/them today so they could make sure I stay home on this cold night. Normally I've always had enough freedom to come and go and stay out as late as I please, but lately it seems like my parents have been a little more worried than usual. My mom knew I had plans to go out after dinner, but they still chose to go to the casino to eat even after knowing there'd be a two hour wait. And after dinner, my dad went ahead and parked their car behind mine so I won't be able to get out of the garage...ok mom and dad, I'll stay home tonight to please you.

So expect lots of random posts tonight, because there's nothing I love more than to write.

Wallet: Gucci
Dream Car: I've always wanted a black on black Denali
Toothbrush: orange handle, Oral B
Jewelry Always: my seven lucky gold bracelets and my white gold cross necklace; always
Pillowcase: solid black
Eyes: Dark brown
Room: clothes everrrryyywhere
Love Life: Non existent
Perfume: ralph lauren ralph pink bottle and marc jacobs cucumber
Piercings: n/a
Wearing: maroon u of m sweat pants w/a black v-neck tee
Wanting: mango fro-yo w/strawberries, kiwi, mochi, and crushed crunch chocolate pieces AND cuddling by the fire w/a good heartfelt conversation
On the iPod: i don't have one, everything's on my BlackBerry
Last thing you ate: thick cut raw prime rib w/au jus sauce
Something you're afraid of: losing a member of my immediate family

First you find it so intriguing, your heart is beating its so misleading, the want grows into god I need it, then you find it slowly leaving, you look for something just the same, so you can feel it once again, you go through strangers but its strange, and go back to salvage what remains,

drunken advances, multiple chances, rookie romantics in need of practice, we’re students of love, in and out of classes, go for the ride until it crashes, Ive been through enough to have learned my lessons, from puppy love throughout my adolescence, we’re friends and enemies, the same identity, you’re a source of strength but a waste of energy, we play that game that some aren’t built for, feel that pain that some would kill for, we drank we smoke, we’ve taken the pillform, got high with you even as your mentor, what we had seemed irreplaceable, till I ran and got a taste of new, but my sex drive was just a waste of fuel, shoulda just used it all on my race to you,

I'm naked, I'm numb, I'm stupid, I'm staying
And if Cupid's got a gun, then he's shootin'

Lights black, Heads bang, You're my drug, We live it
You're drunk, you need it, Real love, I'll give it

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed
Then fall apart in parts

Verse 2:
when im in im in, put my chips on black, your kiss burned my lips like I just hit crack, turn the lights off we get it crackin, turn the lights on and we lose the passion, we try new things by lying and cheating, a constant cycle of goodbyes and greetings, act like love has a higher meaning, we’re afraid to let loose of are tied up demons, time consuming, mind confusion, im trying theres gotta be a science to it, is it worth the effort, im not an expert, once a heckler before the pressure, a constant battle with no winner at the end, a simple breakdown from lover to a friend, friend to an enemy than lover once again, it comes and goes as subtle as the wind, it comes and goes as subtle as the wind, subtle as the wind,

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