I got to see Thinh vulnerable today. It's a rare occasion to see him like that. But it's a relief...he's human, just like everyone else.
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Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
Painful Disease
The disease I got three years back, is slowly creeping back up on me. Not good. I gotta go pay my OBGYN a visit and get some medication again before it's back full throttle.
The pain was so bad earlier I had to force myself to take a nap. After 45 minutes of tossing, turning, and screaming in pain, I knocked out. Woke up three hours later and the pain went away.
I remember three years ago when I first got it. For the first year and a half, each time I got my period, it was a week and a half of hell. Going in and out of emergency rooms and hospitals. None of those "doctors" knew what it was. They just kept me overnight on IV's. I lost so much weight too, I was down to 75lbs because everything I ate within that week and a half of my period I threw up, including water. I couldn't hold anything down. But my dad still forced me to eat to try and get little energy off of it.
Finally, after a year and a half of going in and out of hospitals and emergency rooms I finally got referred over to an OBGYN and she found out right away what was wrong with me. Endometriosis. My doctor gave me three options: to get surgery (although it wouldn't cure it 100%), take a shot every three months ($500 each time insurance doesn't cover), or get put on hormone pills to take everyday so that I wouldn't get my period every month. Surgery is just scary thinking about so I didn't want to do that, the shots were scary and expensive, so I opted for the hormone pills. I was good at taking them everyday for a year or two, then I stopped. Definitely need to get going on them again.
So if you think you got it bad when it comes to having your period, trust me your's is nothing compared to what I have to endure.
The pain was so bad earlier I had to force myself to take a nap. After 45 minutes of tossing, turning, and screaming in pain, I knocked out. Woke up three hours later and the pain went away.
I remember three years ago when I first got it. For the first year and a half, each time I got my period, it was a week and a half of hell. Going in and out of emergency rooms and hospitals. None of those "doctors" knew what it was. They just kept me overnight on IV's. I lost so much weight too, I was down to 75lbs because everything I ate within that week and a half of my period I threw up, including water. I couldn't hold anything down. But my dad still forced me to eat to try and get little energy off of it.
Finally, after a year and a half of going in and out of hospitals and emergency rooms I finally got referred over to an OBGYN and she found out right away what was wrong with me. Endometriosis. My doctor gave me three options: to get surgery (although it wouldn't cure it 100%), take a shot every three months ($500 each time insurance doesn't cover), or get put on hormone pills to take everyday so that I wouldn't get my period every month. Surgery is just scary thinking about so I didn't want to do that, the shots were scary and expensive, so I opted for the hormone pills. I was good at taking them everyday for a year or two, then I stopped. Definitely need to get going on them again.
So if you think you got it bad when it comes to having your period, trust me your's is nothing compared to what I have to endure.
We, Our, Us
I feel like a bitch now. Apart of the whole me accepting the we, our, us thing is for me to accept him being able to "take" care of me. Whatever that means right? But I just rejected his Christmas present because 1)I told him specifically not to get me one this year, and I know we've talked about this before on how it's the thought of him putting the time into picking one out...still, I told you not to get me one! I feel like a bitch for rejecting it, but I also didn't accept it because he put me in a completely bad mood. I packed a lot for this weekend because I knew I was going to stay over at his house a day longer than I usually do, and because I had extra dresses packed just in case we went out more than just for NYE. This morning while bring all of my bags up to his car, he didn't ask once if I needed a hand. Same thing happened earlier when dropping me off. I didn't want to have to ask him to help me with the bags, I wished he would just know to ask me if I needed a hand. But he didn't, even after I said "Can you wait a little? I'm going to need to make two stops since I have a lot of stuff to carry in." The whole time all he did was sit in his stupid warm car! That got me in a bad mood, and when I came out the second time to pick up the last of my stuff he goes "oh yeah baby grab that present it's your's"
.......now I feel like a complete bitch because we've gone over this whole gift stuff before. But I'm still irritated at him for not helping me. Men are so unthoughtful! This is why I'm better off by myself. I know I can do everything by myself, why should I be with a man and want him to help me with things, but in the end he doesn't and I'll just be disappointed and irritated? So unnecessary.
.......now I feel like a complete bitch because we've gone over this whole gift stuff before. But I'm still irritated at him for not helping me. Men are so unthoughtful! This is why I'm better off by myself. I know I can do everything by myself, why should I be with a man and want him to help me with things, but in the end he doesn't and I'll just be disappointed and irritated? So unnecessary.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
2010, I have been anticipating you.
There are two things that I have been anxious for in this upcoming year, start of a new decade that I can think of off the top of my head:
1) taking that next step and moving in with Thinh
2) my future travel destinations
*****
When you’ve been with someone as long as Thinh and I have been, what exactly is the next step? Is there such a thing? I feel like our relationship has been to heaven, down to hell, and now it feels like we’re back on solid ground. Neither heaven, but at least it’s not down in hell again.
Recently, he’s brought up to my attention again about how I should stop thinking in terms of him and I, and that it’s us, our, and we. It’s so hard for me to do that and change my mindset, when it’s always been me, someone that is independent. I know that has been really hard on him, and that it’s making him unmotivated to stay, but I hope he doesn’t quit. That’d be a shame.
Moving in together, we both don’t have a problem with this idea because we’re always together on the weekends anyway. But the more and more he talks about his problems with f_____, it makes me second guess if he’s really wanting to take this next step because of us or because of his problems.
*****
I’ve been wanting to go back to the Motherland ever since I left it back in freshman year of high school. I remember how much fun it was for me and Dave. We both talked about how when we would start saving money to go back in the summer and buy our own xe honda’s (those mopeds) and ride them around in Saigon and Ba Ria. Now, it has been seven years since my first and only visit (to date) back to Vietnam. Once I get one of these jobs (two upcoming interviews and one of them is a second interview with the employer) I told Thinh we are going to start saving to go back together. Whether or not we go back together, I’m going to go back.
*****
If there’s one thing I learned in life, it’s not to depend on anyone to do anything for you, if you want things done right, you gotta do it yourself or you’ll always be disappointed.
1) taking that next step and moving in with Thinh
2) my future travel destinations
When you’ve been with someone as long as Thinh and I have been, what exactly is the next step? Is there such a thing? I feel like our relationship has been to heaven, down to hell, and now it feels like we’re back on solid ground. Neither heaven, but at least it’s not down in hell again.
Recently, he’s brought up to my attention again about how I should stop thinking in terms of him and I, and that it’s us, our, and we. It’s so hard for me to do that and change my mindset, when it’s always been me, someone that is independent. I know that has been really hard on him, and that it’s making him unmotivated to stay, but I hope he doesn’t quit. That’d be a shame.
Moving in together, we both don’t have a problem with this idea because we’re always together on the weekends anyway. But the more and more he talks about his problems with f_____, it makes me second guess if he’s really wanting to take this next step because of us or because of his problems.
I’ve been wanting to go back to the Motherland ever since I left it back in freshman year of high school. I remember how much fun it was for me and Dave. We both talked about how when we would start saving money to go back in the summer and buy our own xe honda’s (those mopeds) and ride them around in Saigon and Ba Ria. Now, it has been seven years since my first and only visit (to date) back to Vietnam. Once I get one of these jobs (two upcoming interviews and one of them is a second interview with the employer) I told Thinh we are going to start saving to go back together. Whether or not we go back together, I’m going to go back.
If there’s one thing I learned in life, it’s not to depend on anyone to do anything for you, if you want things done right, you gotta do it yourself or you’ll always be disappointed.
Short Story
About three weeks ago, the guys (Thinh, Khoi, and Phuc) and I were eating somewhere. We normally have pretty random talks about everything. But I was pretty surprised when Khoi looked at me and busted out "you know what I just noticed? After all of these years being friends with you I just noticed something. I noticed that you never talk. Like if someone brings up something, then you'll add your two cents to it, but you never say how you feel without having someone to say it for you first. Why is that? Do you not like opening up?"
Then, just right now. Thinh left to go do something, so it's just me and Khoi watching the game on tv, and I was on someone's LJ looking at pictures of food (surprise surprise?) and I blurted out "You know what I want right now? Some banh mi op la!" Well, turns out I should do it more often cause Khoi was taken aback and was really surprised "OMG! did you just say something? Tammy's first phrase ever. You deserve some banh mi op la for that. Call T.I. to get some bread and I'll make you the eggs myself!...tammy's first words hahaha"
These guys cracks me up every time, but I guess he's right. I don't open up to very many people.
Then, just right now. Thinh left to go do something, so it's just me and Khoi watching the game on tv, and I was on someone's LJ looking at pictures of food (surprise surprise?) and I blurted out "You know what I want right now? Some banh mi op la!" Well, turns out I should do it more often cause Khoi was taken aback and was really surprised "OMG! did you just say something? Tammy's first phrase ever. You deserve some banh mi op la for that. Call T.I. to get some bread and I'll make you the eggs myself!...tammy's first words hahaha"
These guys cracks me up every time, but I guess he's right. I don't open up to very many people.
Disappointed
I blame Thinh for me never being able to see my friends or for me losing touch with them. Everyone knows it too. Over the past two weeks, I've had three friends who are in the Military come home to visit. I didn't get to see any of them because Thinh either doesn't like 'em or he just didn't wanna do what they were doing. That pisses me off, I mean 'his' friends which are now my friends, they're cool, they're like brothers to me now but it's just annoying how he doesn't try when it comes to 'my' friends. And my friends purposely don't invite me to places or events now because they automatically just assume "she won't come because she's busy with Thinh."
I'm so disappointed...who knows when I'll be able to see those guys again?
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I'm so disappointed...who knows when I'll be able to see those guys again?
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Thursday, December 31, 2009
Au Revior 2009, Bonjour 2010!
1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
Swam with dolphins. Snorkel w/tropical fishes, sharks, and barracudas. Swam with sting rays and fed them.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didn't have a new years' resolution and i probably won't make one for next year or any other
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
My aunt, Haley is adorable
4. Did anyone close to you die?
THANK the man above and my guardian angel, no.
5. What countries did you visit?
No new countries )= Hopefully that'll change in 2010.
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
patience and time (so contradicting!)
7. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
There's a lot. But I'll keep that to myself
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
working 40 hours/week while going to school with 15+ credits and still making A's and B's
9. What was your biggest failure?
Leaving my job before finding another one to fall back on
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
No.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Another Blackberry, this time my 8900. New toys in 2010, I have my eyes on a dslr.
14. Where did most of your money go?
Food, going out, and traveling
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
My trips to Florida and Vegas w/people who matter.
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
that Black Eyed Peas one...only because over do it on the radio (something something gotta feeling tonight will be a good night)
Compared to this time last year, are you:
17. Thinner or fatter?
Skinnier
18. Richer or poorer?
poorer
19. What do you wish you'd done more of?
work. Why oh why did I quit my job? Now my winter break will suffer because of it.
20. What do you wish you'd done less of?
spend spend spend
21. How will you be spending Christmas?
Home, K Dramas
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?
Nope.
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Glee, GG, Dexter, Weeds, Greek, anything on HGTV
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nah
26. What was the best book you read?
A Different Mirror -Ronald Takaki it was for my intercultural comm. class
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Some new bands thanks to a "human" friend of mine
28. What did you want and get?
everything
29. What did you want and not get?
nadda
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
The Hangover, Law Abiding Citizen
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
turned 21. Dinner with family and close friends. Followed by a week long trip to Orlando and Miami and celebrated with my Floridians.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Learning to be patient and not to rush into life...still trying!
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
More and more girly as the year goes on...more and more dresses that i'm wearing and slowly learning how to apply something girls call make-up
34. What kept you sane?
my awesome girls and guys, and my awesome family
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
james franco. smart and sexy
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Bailout money to "top" companies that definitely do not deserve the dough.
37. Who did you miss?
my family in Cali, I keep telling them I'll visit, but I haven't gotten the chance
38. Who was the best new person you met?
there's only one person that sticks out in my mind right now. two letters human H.K.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Plan your work, then work your plan
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
The entire lyrics to Kid Cudi Pursuit of Happiness
Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don't care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I'm doin’ my thing
Rollin the Midwest side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my road I'm screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets
*Knock Knock*
Dear Tammy,
*knock knock* is anyone in there?? When are you going to start taking your academics seriously? You're supposed to be graduating this Spring, and although I already know how you don't care what society thinks and their measurement of standards in life, like when someone should be done with their undergraduate, but seriously, it's time to get your fucking shit together!!!!!!!!
*knock knock* is anyone in there?? When are you going to start taking your academics seriously? You're supposed to be graduating this Spring, and although I already know how you don't care what society thinks and their measurement of standards in life, like when someone should be done with their undergraduate, but seriously, it's time to get your fucking shit together!!!!!!!!
*****
I'm so disappointed in myself. I never take my academics serious, and now I'm in this stupid and frustrating situation. If I can't get myself out of this, I don't know what to do.
I know finishing school will get me to where I need and want to be in life, but somehow someway my head still doesn't listen, and I still don't take it serious enough.
I wish I could just go back in time and go through high school all over again. But then that'd be going against everything that I believe in..
In times like this I don't know what I believe in anymore. I need a friend right now.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
All nighter day #2
I'm so sick of school.
All of this reading in my communication classes have me wanting to create a Web 2.0 site and making millions off of it after selling it to a big time company like Google or Yahoo!
I also dislike society's whole you-won't-be-successful-unless-you-have-a-college-degree deal, well you know what? Fuck you society!
dfajsdflkdsflkd
Maybe I just need sleeep, lots of it.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Relationship Venting
Lately I’ve been receiving comments that I’m “cold-hearted” or “heartless” by my peers. I’d like to take those comments as compliments. I don’t think I’m either, I just like to see it as, I wear my heart on my sleeve for all to see but for no one to possess.
I know I talk about taking risks all the time, and that life is too short to not take them. But I would rather not take the leap of faith and risk getting involved in l-o-v-e. If I was all about risks, I think I would’ve risked everything for nothing a couple weeks ago, but I’m here, with everything, but why do I still feel like nothing?
I’ve always saw relationships as, never settling for anyone, because if you settle, you’ll never be happy. I’ve always saw relationships as, always go for the one you’ll love more, not going for the one who will love you more.I’ve always saw relationships as, it’s impossible to find someone who’ll never hurt you, so go for the one who’s worth all of the pain.I’ve always saw relationships as, a two-way thing, not one-way.I’ve always saw relationships as, a long-term investment, you’ll never know if that investment will be a life investment.I’ve always saw relationships, as a lot of different things, but those were just a few.Thinh is right about something, I’ve always had a set of firm beliefs that I’ve always stood by for the past five years we’ve been together, and for me to all of a sudden to think any differently is not possible. He knows me so well, it’s scary. Besides myself, he’s the only other person who knows me at all, well besides a couple selected ‘best friends’, but he knows me better than my own immediate family. And he’s right though, I’m not thinking any differently from my beliefs, there’s just something in the way that’s holding me back.
After spending a couple weekends with him since our break up, things are slowly but surely falling into place again.
One of my wise friends reminded me that things are never set in stone, so I could change my future to the way I want it. But with Thinh, things seem to be set in stone; it’s scary but comforting at the same time. It’s scary because he’s my future, no one else. It’s comforting because knowing that I’ve already possibly found the one person I may be spending my life with is nice. But it’s again scary because I’m so young, I always talk about how life is so short, but when I think about him and I, life is long.
When I broke up with Thinh for that short period of time, you know how many people were shocked because we were so ‘perfect’ or that we ‘belonged together’. Even people we don’t really even spend time with came up to me telling me that they couldn’t see me and him with anyone else but each other. Is there something wrong with that picture? I’ve always hated that people thought our relationship was perfect, because no relationship is perfect. We just don’t like to fight in front of people, or let people know about our relationship problems, that don’t mean we ‘belong together’.
I also hate that I’m always the ‘bad’ one in our relationship and that he’s always the ‘good’ one. I told him that and he said “it’s because they don’t know what’s going on.” I’m still not the bad one, believe that.
There's soooooo much more I need to get off my chest but I'll save it for later.
I know I talk about taking risks all the time, and that life is too short to not take them. But I would rather not take the leap of faith and risk getting involved in l-o-v-e. If I was all about risks, I think I would’ve risked everything for nothing a couple weeks ago, but I’m here, with everything, but why do I still feel like nothing?
I’ve always saw relationships as, never settling for anyone, because if you settle, you’ll never be happy. I’ve always saw relationships as, always go for the one you’ll love more, not going for the one who will love you more.I’ve always saw relationships as, it’s impossible to find someone who’ll never hurt you, so go for the one who’s worth all of the pain.I’ve always saw relationships as, a two-way thing, not one-way.I’ve always saw relationships as, a long-term investment, you’ll never know if that investment will be a life investment.I’ve always saw relationships, as a lot of different things, but those were just a few.Thinh is right about something, I’ve always had a set of firm beliefs that I’ve always stood by for the past five years we’ve been together, and for me to all of a sudden to think any differently is not possible. He knows me so well, it’s scary. Besides myself, he’s the only other person who knows me at all, well besides a couple selected ‘best friends’, but he knows me better than my own immediate family. And he’s right though, I’m not thinking any differently from my beliefs, there’s just something in the way that’s holding me back.
After spending a couple weekends with him since our break up, things are slowly but surely falling into place again.
One of my wise friends reminded me that things are never set in stone, so I could change my future to the way I want it. But with Thinh, things seem to be set in stone; it’s scary but comforting at the same time. It’s scary because he’s my future, no one else. It’s comforting because knowing that I’ve already possibly found the one person I may be spending my life with is nice. But it’s again scary because I’m so young, I always talk about how life is so short, but when I think about him and I, life is long.
When I broke up with Thinh for that short period of time, you know how many people were shocked because we were so ‘perfect’ or that we ‘belonged together’. Even people we don’t really even spend time with came up to me telling me that they couldn’t see me and him with anyone else but each other. Is there something wrong with that picture? I’ve always hated that people thought our relationship was perfect, because no relationship is perfect. We just don’t like to fight in front of people, or let people know about our relationship problems, that don’t mean we ‘belong together’.
I also hate that I’m always the ‘bad’ one in our relationship and that he’s always the ‘good’ one. I told him that and he said “it’s because they don’t know what’s going on.” I’m still not the bad one, believe that.
There's soooooo much more I need to get off my chest but I'll save it for later.
Learn Your Karma From Your Zodiac Sign:
In Indian (Vedic) astrology, your zodiac sign determines your karmic path and the challenges you will face during your incarnation in this life. Here is a simple break down of how your zodiac sign can reveal your karma based on past life experiences. (Via)
ARIES
Your challenge may be to put someone else first for a change as you are a fire sign who is very ambitious. Your challenges often have to do with your reputation. Problems with money can arise because of your impulsiveness.
TAURUS
You are a stubborn individual and it may be your challenge to admit for once that you are wrong. Loneliness is often a problem for this sign.
GEMINI
You tend to escape reality and, as talented as you are, you may be presented with situations in this life that force you to be more grounded. Health problems could present themselves. Love triangles are common and fidelity could be another challenge for you.
CANCER
You are very inward looking and shy. Your challenge may be to overcome depression or a “woe is me” attitude. Mental health and relationship problems are common.
LEO
You are a very arrogant and ambitious individual and you may be presented with challenges in this life that force you to be a little less selfish and shallow. Financial problems are common with Lion type karma.
VIRGO
You are a very controlling individual who finds it difficult to let go. You may be presented with situations in this life that compel you to be less rigid. You may often be dealing with situations where you are not credited for your work or you feel unloved.
LIBRA
You are indecisive and you may be forced to make some tough decisions that are out of the ordinary to remedy your karma from other lives. You will learn not to blame others for your problem. The issue is to determine whether you are a martyr or a victim.
SCORPIO
You can be obsessive and too concerned with sex. Your challenge may be to rise beyond the compulsive nature of your desires. You may also be tempted to dabble in the occult.
SAGITTARIUS
You can be wayward and concerned only about your own agenda. Issues of commitment could be challenging in this life if you are born under this zodiac sign.
CAPRICORN
You love money and acquiring possessions. One of your challenges may be realizing that money is not everything in this life. You might also be presented with issues that show you that “everything” does not have to be perfect for you to be loved.
AQUARIUS
You love to be free and to while away the hours in your own mind. Unfortunately, this leads to procrastination. You may face challenges that are the consequences of not being mindful or paying attention to what is important in life.
PISCES
The Pisces zodiac sign is always looking for the other in their life time. The challenge might be how to learn how to be alone or you might face issues of coherency and addiction.
--I'm a Gemini. Funny, what my karma says...
ARIES
Your challenge may be to put someone else first for a change as you are a fire sign who is very ambitious. Your challenges often have to do with your reputation. Problems with money can arise because of your impulsiveness.
TAURUS
You are a stubborn individual and it may be your challenge to admit for once that you are wrong. Loneliness is often a problem for this sign.
GEMINI
You tend to escape reality and, as talented as you are, you may be presented with situations in this life that force you to be more grounded. Health problems could present themselves. Love triangles are common and fidelity could be another challenge for you.
CANCER
You are very inward looking and shy. Your challenge may be to overcome depression or a “woe is me” attitude. Mental health and relationship problems are common.
LEO
You are a very arrogant and ambitious individual and you may be presented with challenges in this life that force you to be a little less selfish and shallow. Financial problems are common with Lion type karma.
VIRGO
You are a very controlling individual who finds it difficult to let go. You may be presented with situations in this life that compel you to be less rigid. You may often be dealing with situations where you are not credited for your work or you feel unloved.
LIBRA
You are indecisive and you may be forced to make some tough decisions that are out of the ordinary to remedy your karma from other lives. You will learn not to blame others for your problem. The issue is to determine whether you are a martyr or a victim.
SCORPIO
You can be obsessive and too concerned with sex. Your challenge may be to rise beyond the compulsive nature of your desires. You may also be tempted to dabble in the occult.
SAGITTARIUS
You can be wayward and concerned only about your own agenda. Issues of commitment could be challenging in this life if you are born under this zodiac sign.
CAPRICORN
You love money and acquiring possessions. One of your challenges may be realizing that money is not everything in this life. You might also be presented with issues that show you that “everything” does not have to be perfect for you to be loved.
AQUARIUS
You love to be free and to while away the hours in your own mind. Unfortunately, this leads to procrastination. You may face challenges that are the consequences of not being mindful or paying attention to what is important in life.
PISCES
The Pisces zodiac sign is always looking for the other in their life time. The challenge might be how to learn how to be alone or you might face issues of coherency and addiction.
--I'm a Gemini. Funny, what my karma says...
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Who knew. I didn't expect things to turn out the way it did.
I'm running against time.
Trade everything I've known and am comfortable with for something unfamiliar and unknown? People would say I'm crazy if I traded everything I've known in for something unfamiliar, that's why I'm still here, physically. I feel like my heart is elsewhere. You can too.
I'm running against time.
Trade everything I've known and am comfortable with for something unfamiliar and unknown? People would say I'm crazy if I traded everything I've known in for something unfamiliar, that's why I'm still here, physically. I feel like my heart is elsewhere. You can too.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Keyshia Cole - Fallin' Out
How is it possible to think you knew how everything in your life will turn out to be, and BAM a couple of weeks later, the tables have completely changed and you no longer know where anything is going anymore...
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
The Transitional Joint - Elzhi
It's been a little over a year since one of our first GNO's...this night was so much fun. I wish things and time stayed the same.*****
I don't know what I want anymore, and it scares me. There's so much in this pot, that I'm afraid I might be ready to fold the hand, but it'll be more than just a hand that I'll be folding.
Are you strong enough to call my bluff?
Are you strong enough to call my bluff?
*****
Serendipity, not only is it my favorite movie, but it's the effect by which one accidentally discovers something fortunate, especially while looking for something else entirely...
I should stop myself before.
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